"Ok, here's what I think -- I just want to lay it on the table, 'cause I don't do well with this beating around the bush bullshit. I'm leaving the country in a couple of days and after last night, I think it would be nice to make some sense of this if that is at all possible. I think you should come over and stop time with me." ~notes before I made a phone call to a boy circa 2004, found while looking through old notebooks